"Took a few moments with Mendrika for a breather. Smoking onboard is complicated since air filters can get seriously expensive on the back market, especially for a two centuries old starship. Any opportunity to just lay down and relax should probably be written somewhere in the law. Then again, the law states that Mendrika’s passion for botany is highly illegal.
Still, I had this intense sense of guilt and shivers down my spine while taking hits on this beautiful planet’s landscape. I can’t explain it. It feels like I want to scream. It feels like we’re going around in circles. It feels like I’m losing sense of reality."
Are we ever passengers
and never the driver
I want to atone to the future
the ashes hold me down
I stray my mind and body
just to reach a bit further
Nevermind, I'll just roll another one
I wonder if I can fight, ashes everywhere
I'll just fight, it's all that I've got
I'll just fight, it's all that I have